…that deserves to be heard.
ps – Any comments should be directed to Kelly, not me. This is her story.
20 Jun
…that deserves to be heard.
ps – Any comments should be directed to Kelly, not me. This is her story.
23 May
I can only use one arm right now because of the surgery (which went well with no complications)…
…and I don’t think grace has ever been so tangible.
18 May
It’s so easy to lose track of time.
My last post in here was over four months ago. Before that it was sporadic and I hadn’t posted anything of substance in a pretty long time. I’m not too sure how I feel about that. That makes me pretty disappointed because mostly it’s all been sheer laziness that has kept me from writing down some pretty important things.
There’s been a lot of conversation, a lot of movement from Him and a lot of growth. New friends and old have impacted me in different ways. The anniversary of my baptism passed virtually unnoticed. Lots of coffee conversations have gone unrecorded and late nights at Applebees have come and gone. I had my best semester of college in…well, ever.
It’s time to start keeping track again and to put the laziness away. I have opinions, they’re valuable and I’m allowed to express them. In fact, if I didn’t express them, I would be doing God, myself and others a pretty big disservice.
That’s not to say since I haven’t been writing that I haven’t been active. Far from it. There’s been a lot of growth at the CSU Lifegroup. I’ve been investing myself in peoples lives and some of the fruits of that are starting to show in their lives and in my own. 707 has been getting better and we’re continuing to go down the path He wants us to.
I just want to start keeping track of what’s been up. What’s going down and what God is doing. So I’ll be writing in here more often. For now I’ll try to keep it at least once a week.
Bring on the Kingdom.
22 Dec
29 Nov
It’s the day after Thanksgiving, and I’m thankful.
I’m thankful we have a God who forgives time and time again, with a patience that never wears thin, never gets tired, never runs dry. I’m thankful that once I deserved death, but now I am washed by His blood and am now co-heirs with Him, and so now God sees me as clean, pure, washed, blameless.
I’m thankful for second, third, fourth, fifth, and seventy-third chances.
I’m thankful for the beautiful girl that sits next to me every Monday, Wednesday and Friday morning, for her friendship, her smiles and her passion for Him. She has a rash on her cheeks from her illness, but I only see a brilliant glow.
I’m thankful that my mother is still alive and I’m thankful that God is bigger than any cancer. I’m thankful for my dad, as fragile and strained as our relationship may be.
I’m thankful for being sober and for being able to truly feel alive. I’m thankful that I’m constantly reminded what that means and where I came from. I’m thankful that no matter how many times I relapse, God will be there.
I’m thankful for so many people that have cared about me, put up with me, loved on me, encouraged me and challenged me.
I’m thankful for being alive. For air and water, for light and darkness.
I’m thankful.
Shout for joy to the Lord, all the earth
Worship the Lord with gladness
come before him with joyful songs
Know that the Lord is God
It is he who made us, and we are his
we are his people, the sheep of his pasture
Enter his gates with thanksgiving
and his courts with praise
give thanks to him and praise his name
For the Lord is good and his love endures forever
his faithfulness continues through all generations
– Psalm 100
23 Nov
I don’t write in here near as much as I want to. I always feel like anything I have to say has been written about or talked about before. Then I remember my God gave me my own mind with my own unique view on every subject imaginable. Those are the times I write. I pray that I have those moments more often.
For those of you who have been asking, yes. I have an interest and no, I won’t tell you who it is because it’s between me and God. The few people who I want to know already know. These are people I have asked to pray about things or have gone to and asked for advice because I value their opinion. One of the best lessons God has taught me is that something can still be important even if very few people know about it.
707 is going really well if you don’t count our copy machine. I usually make the bulletins and it jams up on me at least 10 times every Sunday, if not more. It’s a small thing to have to deal with but it gets me so frustrated. I’d pray for patience but I know better than that, so I’ll just pray God has the printing company send us our new bullitens faster so we don’t have jams all the time. Aside from that, we had five baptiosms last Sunday and they were totally amazing. If you haven’t seen them, head over to the 707 website and check out the video from November 16th. It’s great.
I’ve been trying to become more faithful in my prayer life, but it’s hard, especially with finals coming up soon. It seems like I’m always on the run these days. If it’s not a paper it’s a project or a lab report. Things will setle down soon and hopefully I can have more time to spend with God.
Congratulations to Andy and Meri on their first child! Baby Sikora will be here in a few months.
I’m finished with my last ever lab report (YES!) so it’s time for sleep.
Jesus, I love you. Help me be a good student and pass my finals.
12 Nov
I prayed for you tonight. I pray for you every night. I hope that somehow, some way, you can feel it or hear it or something.
It’s hard walking with you all the time and not blurting out really stupid things like how beautiful I think you are or how much your smile makes me want to smile or how amazing it is that you have so much passion for Jesus.
I’m fairly certain that you don’t feel the same way as I do, that God has a different guy for you. Some other guy.
Damn, is he ever lucky.
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